Thanksgiving

I really dislike family holidays. When I come home, I don't wanna work more.

Our house isn't dirty, why should I clean? My grandpa is blind. He can't tell if there is dust or the floor needs to be vaccumed... Who are we trying to impress?

My mom is retired! Why should I clean when I get home when she has nothing to do all day? Really?

She gets upset that no one helps her cook but then she never cooks for us that often anyway so why should we help!?

*Sigh*

I hate Thanksgiving.

I don't wanna hear it

Have you ever heard something that you wish you hadn't?

I mean, I never realized how thin the walls in my building were until yestersday when I heard...my neighbors. It could have been worse... She might have been more vocal but at 11am? Isn't that a little early? What if there were kids around... since there are a few in our building.

The funny part is how awkward it is to deal with my other neighbors in the hall while this was going on... I mean, what do you say? I just laughed and said that it was worse through my kitchen wall and this has been going on, on and off for 8 1/2 hours... They laughed.

Hey dog... I wuv you... Please stop bitting me.

Raja Raja... You can stand, sit, and fetch... but you cannot control your mouth. Stop biting me.

What have I done to make you think that this behavior is super cool? Um. It's not. In fact, it hurts.

You made me hurt... You made me bleed... Yet when you really deserve that time-out, you cry from behind the gate and I feel like I'm the one who has done the bad thing.

Therefore, it's off to bed for me. Cuz though it might seem like it's early, it's not for me. Soooooo.... good night piranha puppy, good night.

Shopping Sucks... Especially Christmas Shopping

The one thing I hate the most about finals week is that Christmas is the week after. I mean, usually I have everything bought weeks in advance because I can't take last minute Christmas shopping.

Soooo I get a random call from my mom today. Not bad like it could be but still not great. She's joining Facebook. I thought there were rules about this...

Oh well. So I ask for her to begin to think about what she, my dad, and my brother would like for Christmas. To be honest, I've spent over 100s of dollar on my family for Christmas before, I think that's the way it should be. Friends get stuff but not anywhere near the awesome-ness that is the gifts for my parents and brother.

David always gets a Smallville or something just as awesome because his birthday is 12/29... Sucks huh? Christmas and birthday all wrapped up in one. Bleh. My mom liked that Mamma Mia film so she's getting the 2-disc edition. She loves special features and gets secretly pissed when my dad gets her the cheaper 1-disc editions with no special features (Nobody mention Harry Potter 5 - she was pissed). I also figured that since she like the show Bones and Criminal Minds that I would get her the first seasons of each. Well... Bones for her, Criminal Minds for my dad. He likes stuff like that. I'd also get him the new Indiana Jones and Leatherheads. I'm gonna have to save up some money so I can afford this stuff!

I'm also gonna bake for my grandpa... There aren't too many things he can enjoy since my grandma died. He misses her a lot so I'm gonna use some of her recipes for him. He also like the breads that I make. I'm glad someone appreciates my cooking. :-)

Now eventually... like early to mid December, my mom will ask me what I'd like for Christmas. I hate surprises... You will know immediately that I'm not happy when I'm surprised. It will be like you've been let down. I'm usually thinking "This wasn't what I asked for... Um, should I ask for the receipt now or later... Hurry! Smile! Make them think you like it..." Yeah... I'm spoiled.

I know that I won't get anything that great or expensive from my parents so I'm going to avoid asking for the DW 4 series. Not going to happen. I also know from experience to not ask for things they can't get in a store. They don't usually plan ahead very well and yeah, ordering last minute online (as its the only place they can get it) is very expensive and makes my dad angry. Usually at this point, they give me the credit card as say that I should order it myself. ...It's sad when I do my own Christmas shopping, wrap my own gifts, and then have to act like I didn't know it was coming. That's silly.

It's the same with my brother. usually we'll go to best buy like the weekend before Christmas and we'll find stuff he can get mom and dad. Then he'll tell me to go pick out what I want. Yeah. Nice, it's true but it's a let down. Like they don't know what I'd like anymore and they might as well get me a friggin' gift card.

Best rule for me: If I want it and I don't want to be disappointed, I should buy it my damn self.

That's why I bought my baby doll shirt. That's why I bought an XBox 360. That's why I bought the DW series 3. That's why I've pre-ordered Persona 4. I know if I don't do it, I'm not going to get what I want.

• Oh... Last year, I made a word document with names, prices and locations, sizes and colors, web links, etc for my mom so she could get stuff for me. Still after all that, she decided she wanted to surprise me. She framed my 8th grade art project, and bought me a cd discman.
• ...The look on my face made my brother laugh until he cried. I was trying to hold a smile on my face but it was looking like a pained grimace. She yelled at me later when I asked if I could return the CD discman (cuz you can't take back a picture frame).
• She said I was ungrateful and that's probably true. But it was a surprise and not a very welcome one. I had that picture forever on the top shelf in our backroom (I made that 8yrs ago) though now, in a frame, in my kitchen, it's grown on me (so that one is OK). The discman was thoughtless on her part (Was that mean? Oops...), since earlier in the year my parents got me an MP3 player (which makes CDs pointless to own).
• ...My aunt got me oven mitts and hot pads... I didn't even take those out of the bag. I mean, WTF. Seriously. I don't even cook anymore and she keeps giving me cookbooks... That's nice for re-gifting though.

Hopefully we've learned from last year... I will also try not to be unhappy at things I'm surprised at. (At the very least we can do better at my birthday)

So I'm gonna make a list of things I will not cringe at and hopefully... I won't have to. Either way I can prepare myself for the inevitable let down. (I'm a pessimist what do want from me)

• Stargate Atlantis - Oh how you've failed me. I hate you and your two last seasons. I hope you burn and your cast is forever trapped in the SciFi Genre... Real actors *snort* HA!
• DW other than the 5th Doctor - I've seen all I like and still have seen them all... 1/2 the "Key to Time" Series has still not been watched. I will watch but yeah, I don't like the others anymore.
• Any other TV series - WTH I don't watch anything other than my DW, TW, and SJA (and food network) so you have no business here.
• Any books - My tastes are strange. Therefore, let me pick out my own damn books. I might like one in a series but not another... (Like that new HP fairy tale book, you can go to hell. Like the last in the Twilight series, I couldn't stomach the 3th so yeah...don't waste your money). Besides, if there is a book that I want, chances are I have it already.
• Any games/board games - Unless you've asked and I've agreed... don't even think about it. I live alone, so yeah. I'm not gonna be playing many games with people...

There aren't many things that I like anymore. I just never have time. I have games and movies that I own but yeah, no. I don't care about them anymore.

I swear if I get anymore candy from people I'll scream. I know I like sugar. I'm like a big bowl of candy myself. You could open a vein and a coagulated sugar/blood mix would ooze out... But really? Do you think that food makes me happy? (Well... some do. Like pizza and Twislers. Nasty together though.)

You know... I've just noticed how long this rant is... Holy crap! I'm a spoiled selfish brat... But but... Oh well. Nevermind.

Yes... Yes... I know. I have problems.

I had an interesting phone call last night with my friend Rachel. While I already knew I had issues with being a nerd, sometimes it still surprises me.

I had just gotten my Doctor Who series 3 dvds and I'm pretty sure I squee-d when I opened the package.

Now, the urban dictionary defines squee as "A noise primarily made by an over-excited fangirl," "A squealing sound. Can be either happy or scared," or "The cry of the rabid fangirl (Usually a rabid anime fangirl), heard across many hallways." I think I apply to the third definition listed. One can find other definitions and examples can be found at: http://www.urbandictionary.com/define.php?term=squee.

Indeed.

I'm not sure why I was so excited... While I do adore David Tennant, I'd rather squee for Peter Davidson. I do have quite a few doctor who dvds, but this one made me really happy. I think its because it is what got me interested in doctor who. I saw the "Shakespeare Code" episode and I was hooked. After that I saw all the back "new" episodes and then went further back and began to watch the 1st-7th doctor episodes.

My favorite doctors in order: 5th (Peter Davidson), 10th (David Tennant)/6th (Colin Baker), 7th (Sylvester McCoy), and 9th (Christoper Eccleson). If I like the people, I'm more likely to like stories about them.

Procrastination...

Don't you just hate it when you know that there is something you have to do but you find reasons to put it off?

Last night, I was studying for my Therapeutics exam... but my mind was drifting. I would study, take a break, review and study more, take a break, etc... I figured that was the best way to keep my mind on the subject at hand (Infective Endocarditis, Skin and Soft-tissue infections/Bone and Joint infections, Intra-Abdominal infections, and Urinary Tract infections). Doesn't that sound like fun?

Unfortunatly... I discovered right around this time that someone posted the DW Series 4 OST. As it wasn't supposed to be up until mid-November, I got excited and stopped studying. When it finished (it took 18.6min) I listened to the whole thing like 4 times. It was brilliant! Sadly, I took so much time listening to it that it was past midnight when I finished.

That is a common occurance when I have a big exam coming up. Little things seem more important and I tend to be more easily distracted. Like a Raccoon with a reflective surface...

I also notice that I clean more when its finals week. My apartment is never as nice as during those days... Oh well.

Late at night is when it happens...

Have you ever been up so late all that was on was infomercials? I used to love watching them as a kid. I guess I was an easy target but after I saw them, I'd think,"I could use that..." I used to love the Rock N' Chop, and could quote the whole "Set it and forget it" spiel. While nowadays I'm not watching them on purpose, some nights I'm up late and they just come on.

Unfortunatly I have a more pressing problem. I've started the habit of checking out eBay before I go to sleep (damn wireless) and have discovered that I'm more prone to stupid purchases at 1am than at any other time of the day. I guess everything looks better then you're half asleep...

Now I wake up to emails from paypal and ebay thanking me for my purchases... That isn't the most pleasant of wake up calls as yeah, I like my money.


I admit that sometimes I'm in my right mind and have bought stupid things (to others at least) on purpose...

A few nights ago I bought a Doctor Who Fob Watch.

Why? Well... I needed a watch for starters. I was also on the UK version of amazon, which is nice because they really don't ship the good stuff to the US so there's no harm in looking. But I saw the watch and I was like... I could use a watch (because in fact I do). But... not only is it a watch, it have speech, sounds, and lights! Three things I really like all jam packed together! :-) After I discovered that I could not order the fob watch from this amazon, I checked eBay and low and behold! I bought it. From the United Kingdom. Um... yeah. I have problems. I mean, I'm really excited about it and all but when I think back to why I need it, it becomes less cool.

You see... I'm in a class called IPE5. In this class we have practicals where we actually take someone blood pressure, heart rate, respiratory rate, etc. We had our CV practical a week ago and I have to take someones heart rate. I had to make something up as yeah, no watch to tell time with.

Sooooooooo now I'm getting a watch for professional reasons and yeah... It friggin lights up and plays sounds. Wasn't that the best idea ever?

Other recent slighty stupid purchases I've made are:

• The 4 disc edition of the Chronicles of Narnia: The Lion, The Witch, and The Wardrobe (You know, I don't really even like this movie. In fact, I hated the book... W T F!?)
• Doctor Who: The Complete Third Series (That's the one with Martha. She's one of my favorite companions!)

Funny thing I heard...

Currently, I'm in therapeutics. We are going over a case of an UTI in a 88yo WF.

The funniest thing I just heard:

• In this patient you want to monitor for menstrual irregularities.

Um... How old is she? Well, I guess I'd be wary of irregularities like actually having your period at 88 yo. Soooo... Uh Nice try?

Go Her. :-)

Resistance is Futile

Things I can't resist:

Not paying attention in HSM

• They say they want us to pay attention... But when most classes give you something to take notes on or follow along with, HSM doesn't. I've never listened to the man's whole lecture before. 3hrs of sitting and trying to pay attention when the pull of the internet is too great? Nope. Internet wins hands down. Although, sometimes when I drift back into listening to class, it can be sorta funny...

Informative Halloween Programs

• Lats night had some amazing specials... I couldn't help but watch. It made me want to either carve pumpkins (which I hate) or go to a haunted house (which i'd be too scared of doing). They covered both the Darkness and creepyworld on the programs but yeah. Both look like I'd have some pretty big issues. It's the clowns. I hate clowns. Since clowns scare people, haunted houses put clowns in there.
• If I saw a clown... I'd probably cry. I mean, the last huanted house I went to (I was either 18 or 19) I had a panic attack, ended up hyperventiliating/nearly passing out, and had to be escorted out of the area with the clowns. Both of the girls (the clowns) were very nice and concerned but yeah, I had to get away. I'm pretty sure I threw up for like an hour after that. No more.

Sugar

• I love sugar... Evil but good. Enough said. :-)

Fanfiction

• I'm a dork but I can't resist a good story. If it contains characters that I like, it makes me happy. On facebook I joined a group basically saying that I can't accept that fictional characters are not real. Stupid yes... But much more fun. Most of the time I think that establishing characters and location are the hardest part of a story. With people that are known, you can just go with it... As long as you give credit where credit is due. The original authors deserve love too!

Persona...

• Everytime a new game comes out, I go nuts. I need to get it right away. In fact, I've already paid for the game which comes out in December. It's been paid for since September. At least this time they aren't shooting themselves. The new one has less of a suicidal theme... both good and bad since I would play it more when I was depressed to get my anxieties out. This time they use the equivalent of tarot cards. That's fine and dandy but the rest of the game better be similar. They also better not push it back again... I swear. There is nothing so important to not release the game at the time it said it would be.
• That right there is probably my biggest pet peeve. I hate when ...I guess people change their minds. Two summers ago, I was excited for months for the release of Persona 3... Then they pushed it back. Again. And again. It pissed me off. Don't tell me one thing then change your minds!!! I hate that so much. I mean, I'll deal with and all, but yeah... It makes me upset. I think its because I normally don't do much and when I get hyped on something I make it my main focus... But god! It was pushed back 3 times! Just what the hell were they doing!? Nothing is worth making me not have my game when I wanted it. I'm pretty sure I really annoyed the Gamestop people with my daily calls asking if it was still on schedule.

Don't take your health for granted...

Yeah well... It's always fun to get phone calls from home. Today was no exception with my mom's fun news. Of course when I say fun... I don't really mean fun. I mean the kind of news that is hard to hear over the phone but you can't help it.

So... My brother is sick. That, while not exactly new, is still becoming more and more alarming for my mom.

You see... He has always had bad teeth. Teeth, you say? What do teeth have to do this? Well, lemme tell you. Alcohol + Smoking + previously bad teeth = even worse bad teeth. Silly but obvious, huh?

This past week he has been in so much pain that his face is swollen (one eye is swollen shut), he can't sleep, he has a fever and chills, he can hardly eat, and yeah...

His jaw is so infected that he will be having all of his teeth pulled. My brother is 27.

Of course, no one likes this option. It's expensive but since my brother no longer has insurance, my parents are paying for it (He's costing them a LOT of money, this plus all his court stuff). My brother also happens to like his particularly nasty teeth, but if doesn't get them all pulled and they remain infected, he could die.

Death is bad.

This sort of health problem has killed people before... the infection moves from the gums/jaw into the blood stream and kills the person. Most of the time its because the pain from the infection hurts the teeth so much that the doctors would pull the teeth. The infection would enter the blood and that's all she wrote.

So yeah... Dentures are not the worst outcome of this situation don't you think?

The thing is... he knew this already. He had a similar problem earlier in the year and had another dentist say that he'd like to remove all of my brother's teeth... so then he never went back to him. I guess you could say that we all knew this was comming. But it still is making my mom a nervous wreak. She is easily excitable, so medical issues put her on high alert...

Basically this Tuesday, our dentist (who looks like Donny Osmond, I swear!) will be removing as many teeth as he can at one time safely (so about 8-10 teeth). While my brother would have prefered it to happen sooner (he feels really awful), it isn't safe to perform dental work with his current infection. To fix that problem, the dentist gave him two extra strength antibiotics... which hopefully will work.


Now, I feel terrible about my brother cuz I don't want him to be feeling bad... but I can't help but hate how my mom likes to tell me very bad, very important news over the phone as a kind of "by the way..." That's not nice.

To Sleep, Perchance To Dream

You know... I used to be horrible in the mornings. I'd wake up late which would make me almost late for class. At home, I had a specialty alarm clock which had an attachment that would shake my bed/pillow (where ever I put it) and it had the ability to alter the decible range of the alarm (my family REALLY hated that).

Sadly, I got used to that in high school and was able to sleep through it. It also didn't hurt that I can't hear many high frequencies (I have moderate bilateral degenerative hearing loss). Both good and bad qualities to that one...

Nowadays, I miss that ability to sleep so much. I'm so sleep deprived that if I get five hours a night I'm extremely fortunate. It's been going on for years. Slowly but surely the fact that I stay up late and have an early class has also been a key factor in my sleep problems.

Just last night I feel asleep at 1:30am (I was finishing up some work), and then I work up at 5:00am and couldn't go back to sleep. This has happened more and more frequently over the past few months... It is nice that I'm not late to any of my classes but none of my classes usually start before 9am. So I'm up for hours in the morning with nothing to do but think "...I could be sleeping right now."

This lack of sleep problem has done one thing for me. I remember my dreams a lot easier now and have them waaaaaaayyy more often.

For example: Last night I had one of my more geeky dreams. Doctor Who related yet not really. They were there yet the main part of the dream was to constantly annoy, frustrate, and bother Paul McGann's Eighth Doctor. Yes. I know. I'm a dork but it was honestly hysterical. The ultimate prank dream... Seriously, sleep aside I wouldn't have missed this dream for anything.

"D'Artagnan!"

Personally, he's a dork for leaving Charlie on that island (one of my audio play character) so to hell with him. Yet, if he hadn't left her, my favorite seriously unstable Colin Baker's Sixth Doctor would never have found her. So there are good and bad sides to him... more bad though.

I think I'm just really surprised to have a dream that I've never had before. I have a lot of childhood recurring dreams. Most of them were pretty creepy too. They make as much sense now as they did then... Oh well.

Riddle Me This...

Quantum materiae materietur marmota monax si marmota monax materiam possit materiari?

Yes that was a bit random. But how often can you ask random questions in Latin? I mean really... It usually doesn't come up in a normal conversation. Then again, most of my converstaions slip from the normal to the abnormal (where they are a lot more comfortable).

Illiud Latine dici non potest.

Yet I just did. Um yes. Bleh. My brain has stopped working. It has become an increasingly frequent event. ...Does that sound right? Grammar is the crazy beast that eludes me more often than not. While I like crazy things as much as the next person, grammar-shaped (Tua mater est vacca foeda!) crazy beasts are not my favourites.

Interdum feror cupidine partium magnarum Europe vincendarum

I'm pretty sure it more in the Risk (game) sense than in the actual sense. Really though. Me? Yeah, every day would be a Doctor Who holiday and yeah, I would kick ass. Unfortuantly as I do not kick much ass-age, that would probably not be the vocation for me.

Antiquis temporibus, nati tibi similes in rupibus ventosissimis exponebantur ad necem.

Insert Random Story: I was at a walgreens and I saw this mom and her two kids. They were running everywhere, touching and messing with everything. I just about wanted to smack them. If I had done that (which I probably had), I would have been yelled at in front of everyone and been punished when I got home.

Nowadays, kids are lacking disipline and are running wild. I swear that if I have kids and they act horribly in public, I'm going to... Well, it's my idea and I don't have to share. Regardless, they will straighten up their acts and never behave that way again.

Now to leave you with...

Nemo saltat sorbius, nisi infanus est... (to which I fit the bill)

Exactly.

Psst! 10 brownie points to who can translate the latin

Demon Dog I Salute You

You might be slighty evil... and have an unnatural taste for human flesh... but you are awesome.

Today wasn't the best day for you but you persevered.

I Salute You Raja!

Memory... All Alone In The Moonlight...

Have you ever wondered why you can remember the stupidest things and the important things just slip your mind? I mean, I can remember every episode name of SG-1 and the new DW... but I can't remember the important information from my flash cards about drugs. Why!?

I know it might be more memorable that I like those shows and not drug flash cards, but still the simplest information eludes me. Alzheimers runs in my family... should I be expecting some kind of early onset? Yay? Sad but true. Oh well. I have enough problems as is with out that as one of them.



BTW: I hate cats. They kill me. Yes, that is meant literally. I'm deathly allergic to cats. So yes, they kills me.

I'm unproductive. Or am I? O.o

Yeah. Um. Ta da! Here I am and I'm unproductive. Yet I've accomplished the creation of a blog... Does that truly mean that I've been unproductive? These are the questions that I ask myself. Obviously I have a lot of time on my hands if I'm willing to contemplate this kinda crap.

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Random Quotes:

"Where'd Russia Go?"

Mr. Logan- You are the most insolent child I have ever had the misfortune to teach!
Lauren- Thank you.
Mr. Logan- You’re pointless, repetitious and extremely dull.
Lauren- A bit like Shakespeare.
- Comic Relief with Catherine Tate & David Tennant

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It will be know sooner rather than later that I have many a problem with the geekness. Yes I have a problem. Sadly, it's a chronic, incurable condition.